May 03, 2020

Realization

Remember my heaven sent new friend I told you about recently? She called me this week, to catch up. Those who know me best know I seldom talk on the phone, and when I do, I'm the one who is blessed. Our chat was lovely, as is she. This morning, after a really long night, where my lipstick lasted through the night (it's a keeper), I received this video in a message from her.

Fortunately for me, God has been preparing me for such a time as this. I've found solace in my alone time. I think more clearly, not depending on anyone to tell me what I feel or think, or how I should act. Dancing and singing is almost a daily thing, it just makes me feel good, has for years. My psychologist friends could more eloquently describe this particular feeling, I don't know what the word(s) would be. The healing began almost eight years ago, the best eight years of my life.

I'm careful not to place blame, as blame is plentiful, after all, we're human. Once we reach adulthood, change must come from within. If we don't take the time to be still, listen, our valuable lessons take longer to learn. My word to each of you, take it for what it's worth, it's free — use this time wisely, the time we've been given to pause, LISTEN. Not once during the past eight years did trusted advisors tell me what to think, at times, much to my dismay. Instead, they made ME think, passively they sat, waiting for the light to shine. Realization is powerful, turning on the switch, learning, months and years later.

I'm not special. Potential is within each of us. Tap into your God given potential. Mine was dormant, it took me a while.

Every day I learn.

Thank you God for your mercies, new everyday. Thank you for your patience with me. Thank you for every gift you've placed in my life, knowing long before I, what would be needed.